Thursday, October 4, 2012

New job

Ok so I am starting a new job tomorrow. I go to new hire orientation and then I start training. I will be traveling to and from work. I am very excited and scared. I am excited to start something new but scared because I DO NOT KNOW ANYONE! I hope I do well. I would like this to work into a permanent job that I can retire from. I am not looking forward to traveling back and forth to work, but if it is meant to be it will work out. I know that God does not open a window if he is going to close it later. I am trying to stay excited and positive. I need prayers to get me through the next few weeks.

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Friendship????

Wow it is amazing how much you don't know when you are on the inside of a situation looking in but once you step out on the outside and look at it, you see a lot of things that you did not realize were there because you were so closed up. I did not believe a "best friend" could treat another best friend the way that I have been treated. I did not believe that someone could lie to me that way and not have any shame for it. I can't believe how used up I feel and it does not even matter. I know I have heard these things about this person, but did not believe that it could happen to me. I thought our relationship was better than that. I did not realize that there are still people out there to get what they can get no matter what or who it hurts. I can't believe I have put so much time into this relationship and now I don't care if it goes on or not. Now it is out there, and I can put it in God's hands and let him deal with this and he can let me know what to do. God is good all the time and all the time, God is good.